miss you guys!! and prayer for direction

C.I.T. brothers and sisters, I miss you and the community we had together so much! Despite this-and because of what the Lord was teaching me during that time-and always, God is good and so He is impressing upon my little mind the gentle and tender way in which He will care for us and provide our needs...and so the sadness of leaving C.I.T. coexists along with this huge hope in Jesus and His plans! Although His plans for me seem to make no sense by all earthly wisdom right now, I am still praying for and trying to place TRUST in Him!

I know that many of you have felt this too, that the Lord changed you and your hearts immensely while you were at camp and that you are now finding it difficult in your home. I definitely feel that way, in a home where I feel like success and stability (by all earthly standards) are the ideal and the god, there is not much support in worshipping Jesus, and definitely not when it comes to trusting in Him for the plans He has for my life. It says in Psalm 139 that "all the days ordained for me were written in Your book before one of them came to be". I feel like temptation to NOT follow God's path grew even greater when I found a week ago I had gotten another $1000 in scholarships for my B.Sc. program, making the total so far $4,750 in scholarships. While this may seem like a good thing, it is something that is going to make it harder for me to tell my parents that I feel like I am feeling like the Lord is leading me in the direction of Bible School next year when I have the ability to get lots of scholarships for the sciences. Again I am not sure about this but I'm really praying about direction right now, I was wondering if you guys could pray??

I am praying for each one of you and love you all!!

M